Monday, March 30, 2020

I Ran So Far Away

I am so proud of myself! During this crazy time, I am appreciating all the little accomplishments and today was one of those days.

I had signed up for the Orangetheory DriTri. It is a workout that involves rowing 2000m, doing 300 reps of body weight exercises, and a 5K on the treadmill. Before I signed up, I did a lot of thinking as to whether it was something that would make me feel accomplished or defeated. After a lot of thinking and overanalyzing, I decided to take on the challenge. I had a fear that my 14:28 mile would make me the last one to finish.

Of course, Orangetheory has closed down all locations around me so the competition was canceled. However, they still challenged us to do a 5K on our own. I decided that because it scared me so much it would be good for me to try it. I woke up motivated and determined.

It was hard and challenging but I did it! Not only did I do it, I took time off my mile. With everything going on right now and being on an emotional roller coaster it was nice to feel proud and accomplished.


Sunday, March 22, 2020

Weekend Blues

I feel like for the most part I have been trying to be optimistic about everything going on. Being in our home all the time and not being able to run to the store has been stressful but I really felt that social distancing was going to save us and in a week or two things would be closer to normal. However, that is not how I feel now.

People are still insisting on traveling, attending parties, and not taking any precautions to keep their germs to themselves. The selfishness during this whole thing has been astounding and heartbreaking. I don't understand how people aren't more concerned about catching COVID-19 or giving it to someone who might die from it. The cases and deaths keep rising and I feel like there is no end in sight.

Over the weekend everything hit me and I spent most of it feeling sad. I'm sad for the all the families affected, the businesses that won't recover, the people who are missing out on big life moments because they have to distance themselves. I'm sad that I haven't hugged my family in almost two weeks and that a cruise we planned almost two years ago for next month will not be happening. I worry that The Husband, who is a Type 1 Diabetic, might get anything that could weaken his immune system. I'm just sad over everything happening in the world.

We did run over to my parents house for ten minutes to say hi. Originally were supposed to have a picnic but the rain and cold didn't allow it. We stayed outside, stood about ten feet from each other, and didn't touch. It mad eye feel better and worse at the same time.

I know that it is important to be hopeful and positive because that is the only way to survive this. However, I feel like over the weekend it was just too much and I needed to let it out. Sometimes allowing yourself to feel your emotions is the best way to move forward and be positive once again.


Wednesday, March 18, 2020

Something to Talk About

We've all been sick and tired of talking about COBID-19 so today Mother Nature decided to give us something else to talk about.... a 5.7 magnitude earthquake! I had not experienced an earthquake since my family moved to Utah from Southern California so, honestly, it took me a minute to figure out what was going on. I was more surprised than anything else.

Luckily we're okay as is our home and other family in the area but on top of everything else that is happening in the world we are rattled. There were no reports of injuries anywhere so that is something to be thankful for. It feels that just as everything is going to calm down something else happens. There is so much fear and uncertainty going around right now and no end in sight. All I could think about was that if something tragic happened, I haven't hugged my parents and sisters in over a week. 

I saw my youngest sister for a few minutes last night because she was sweet enough to bring me a 25 pound bag of flour. She stood at the bottom of the stairs on our stoop and I was at the top in order to respect the six foot rule. I almost cried when I saw her.

As uncertainty continues to be on our minds I wanted to focus on the good things. We are having tacos for dinner (which I've been craving for days!), I was able to get a good workout and run outside done, and I have flour to bake. I know how fortunate we are.

The pictures and videos I add are so that I can remember what is happening. Don't mind them!


Tuesday, March 17, 2020


The world has come to a standstill and right now it feels like there is no end in sight. Utah and many other states have closed down schools, restaurants, department stores, and so many other things. I knew that this was bigger than I thought when they began canceling NBA, MLB, and NHL seasons. Our cruise for next month is in limbo.

The last few days have been rough. I miss my sisters and my parents and wish we could all be together. The Husband and I are doing the best we can to try and have our normal routine. Orangetheory closed down which has affected my anxiety levels. The virus doesn't scare me as much people going crazy at the supermarket hoarding toilet paper and water does. Why must we have a need to look out for only ourselves even if it hurts others?

Yesterday I ran to the grocery store and the lines were long, shelves empty, and there were people wearing surgical masks. I wish I could find hand sanitizer anywhere but we have plenty of hand soap so that will do. I was grateful that I was able to find meat because that was not the case on Friday.

This morning I woke up feeling low. Orangetheory and baking are the ways I calm my anxiety and one is closed and I couldn't find flour anywhere. I tried an at home workout and broke two resistance bands. It made me feel defeated but I ended up going to the local elementary school for a run and it made a huge difference. The air was cold and the sun wasn't fully out over the mountain yet but it felt like my body and brain needed some calm and quiet. Even the chill of the morning helped shut my brain off. It also gave me some encouragement that everything will be okay.

I will begin trying to write on here because I want to document these unprecedented times. Today my smile and happiness has come from little things. Twelve splat points, the sun rising over the mountain, and a cute welcome mat I put out. It will truly be the little things that help us pull through.