Tuesday, March 17, 2020


The world has come to a standstill and right now it feels like there is no end in sight. Utah and many other states have closed down schools, restaurants, department stores, and so many other things. I knew that this was bigger than I thought when they began canceling NBA, MLB, and NHL seasons. Our cruise for next month is in limbo.

The last few days have been rough. I miss my sisters and my parents and wish we could all be together. The Husband and I are doing the best we can to try and have our normal routine. Orangetheory closed down which has affected my anxiety levels. The virus doesn't scare me as much people going crazy at the supermarket hoarding toilet paper and water does. Why must we have a need to look out for only ourselves even if it hurts others?

Yesterday I ran to the grocery store and the lines were long, shelves empty, and there were people wearing surgical masks. I wish I could find hand sanitizer anywhere but we have plenty of hand soap so that will do. I was grateful that I was able to find meat because that was not the case on Friday.

This morning I woke up feeling low. Orangetheory and baking are the ways I calm my anxiety and one is closed and I couldn't find flour anywhere. I tried an at home workout and broke two resistance bands. It made me feel defeated but I ended up going to the local elementary school for a run and it made a huge difference. The air was cold and the sun wasn't fully out over the mountain yet but it felt like my body and brain needed some calm and quiet. Even the chill of the morning helped shut my brain off. It also gave me some encouragement that everything will be okay.

I will begin trying to write on here because I want to document these unprecedented times. Today my smile and happiness has come from little things. Twelve splat points, the sun rising over the mountain, and a cute welcome mat I put out. It will truly be the little things that help us pull through.


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