Sunday, March 22, 2020

Weekend Blues

I feel like for the most part I have been trying to be optimistic about everything going on. Being in our home all the time and not being able to run to the store has been stressful but I really felt that social distancing was going to save us and in a week or two things would be closer to normal. However, that is not how I feel now.

People are still insisting on traveling, attending parties, and not taking any precautions to keep their germs to themselves. The selfishness during this whole thing has been astounding and heartbreaking. I don't understand how people aren't more concerned about catching COVID-19 or giving it to someone who might die from it. The cases and deaths keep rising and I feel like there is no end in sight.

Over the weekend everything hit me and I spent most of it feeling sad. I'm sad for the all the families affected, the businesses that won't recover, the people who are missing out on big life moments because they have to distance themselves. I'm sad that I haven't hugged my family in almost two weeks and that a cruise we planned almost two years ago for next month will not be happening. I worry that The Husband, who is a Type 1 Diabetic, might get anything that could weaken his immune system. I'm just sad over everything happening in the world.

We did run over to my parents house for ten minutes to say hi. Originally were supposed to have a picnic but the rain and cold didn't allow it. We stayed outside, stood about ten feet from each other, and didn't touch. It mad eye feel better and worse at the same time.

I know that it is important to be hopeful and positive because that is the only way to survive this. However, I feel like over the weekend it was just too much and I needed to let it out. Sometimes allowing yourself to feel your emotions is the best way to move forward and be positive once again.


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